Saturday, August 25, 2012

When death did do us part


Growing up has been a wonderful experience. So far it has been a joyous journey that has seen its fair share of love and hate, peace and war, friendship and fall-outs, elation and disappointment, and in many ways a lot of other things.

There are some of those wonderful moments in time that i remember sharing with you; while there have been those that have been told to me over any and many of those numerous breakfast, lunch and dinner conversations that have been narrated with a lot of animation. The conversations that have most certainly always regaled all of us, no matter how many times they have been told. All those wonderful reminisces that have either made us fall out of our chairs laughing, or have left us with a loving smile on our faces.

I have been told about the nights that you had been awake, in order to get me to sleep, holding me tenderly in your arms, close to your warm and assuring body. I have been told about the mornings and the noon’s that you had spent playing with me and about the evenings that you had lovingly dangled me on your knees, making me laugh with your antics.

You held my hands and helped me walk. You dried my tears with your reassurances whenever i fell, and showed me the way. While growing up i remember coming to you all the time for that extra money, which was always needed but never could’ve been saved from the pocket money. And in my teens you would listen to my incessant rants about the unjustness of life, love and relationships.

In sickness you would sit by my side holding my hand, comforting me. Yet you would never ask me to do the same for you, when unwell.

How i remember all the things that you have done for me.

And then one day you died. I could not even see you or come to you. I could not even hold your hand and cry. You left without saying a word to me. You left me with a lot of howling and desolation inside- Standing all alone on the shores of lonely sea, with waves smashing inside. I keep a calm face but i can’t help grieve over you. How i wish to go back in time, to hold your hands with the same tenderness and love, to reassure you of everything being put to right, to stay awake the whole night with you or to just be there with you. But alas, death did do us part without any of those.