Worth of a Relationship

A friend of mine, after loosing someone close to her, had questioned whether the love in a relationship is worth all the tears, the loss and the heartbreak at the end of it. I say end because it’s only logical to speak about it as everything that has a beginning has an end. She had very rightly stated that no relationship ends in a nice way. Some end up in a relatively better way while others don’t- And isn’t that true. So is it worth bothering with personal relationships.

Honestly, I have fought all my life to tow the line of yes in this case. But after all these years and scores of unsuccessful relationships I happen to be wondering right now the worth of all of them. Your family, your friends and even your loved ones have all left you one day to either move ahead or move away from this world. The fact is that it is distressing when it happens. We get shattered and it takes days and days of recuperating to get your life back on track. Life then starts again in a dilatory way. We take one hesitant step at a time and finally get over our grief to ultimately get into another relationship. After a while another end, and there you start all over again.

My friend had said that these losses make us a stronger person but that it could also work the other way round and leave you bitter in the end. It sure seems to be working for me. I have really started wondering about the cause I have so feverishly fought for, all these years. In the end it still breaks, all these relationships, because no matter what you do it is never enough for people. I really don’t see any point in this anymore. All these years and the resultant experiences have just left me with a bitter feeling, wanting for none of this no more.

I try and stay away for the most part; but every once in a while you come across someone who feels different. You feel that perhaps if you put in a little more effort and if you did things in the right way the end might be different this time round. But then again the rights and the wrongs are extremely subjective. You think that if you could perhaps show a lot of understanding then maybe things might be different now. But then it’s not really necessary for the other person to be as understanding as you are. You think that you might want to put in some more of patience, as a key, to make this one work. But alas you finally run out on that too as the person might display none.

So really what’s the point in moving around in circles. These relationships are really not worth bothering for. They give you pain galore for a moment of happiness. They give you incessant tears for a flash of smile. They leave you hurt, broken, burnt and spent in the end. You then gather all your strength to rise from your ashes only to be burnt down again. I reckon I’m just sick and tired of this nonsense in my life and I’d rather say “Fuck you” to all of them and simply steer clear off, of all of them, henceforth.